I never used to make resolutions at the New Year.
There were always things I thought I’d do in the upcoming year, and most of the time, it was lose weight. However, it just seemed as though resolutions never worked for anyone. They were a source of self-disappointment, something I think most of us could do without.
My attitude on resolutions has changed dramatically (likely due to my new love of goal setting) and while I certainly hope to lose weight this upcoming year, weight loss is not a resolution of mine.
Plain and simple: Exercise was a pretty big part of my life for a little while there and I’ve never fully come back from my car accident. Old habits die hard and it was all too easy to fall into laziness again. Throw in the extra back pain I now have and boy is it ever easy to find a reason not to exercise.
The problem is… I felt better when I exercised with a vengeance. I felt empowered and alive and at peace with my body. My body was never perfect, it was always overweight… but I didn’t hate my body… I took pride in it. Sure it was a work in progress… but I’d made so very much progress!
I want that back. I want that drive and dedication back. I want to feel that way about my body again. I want to climb a mountain one small step at a time.
So there you have it. I resolve to rekindle my love of exercise in 2013.
What’s your resolution?
When I wrote my last post, I was feeling out of sorts. Lots of changes going on, my friend, lots of changes… and from an individual whose main goal in life as a child/teen was “to be normal and stable” this is exactly the kind of thing which could send me into fits.
However, the opposite has happened. I don’t want to go into too much detail as I’m perpetually worried about getting in trouble by writing about job-related things. But… keeping that in mind, I’ve had a really good week. I’ve had things occur which have made me feel wonderful about myself and my accomplishments within my profession. People have come forward and said such wonderful things about me and I am forever in their debt.
Why? Not only have they given me a personal pick-me-up when my personal morale had hit an all-time low… but they’ve made me look at my current situation in a whole new light. I’m now seeing the positives of potentially leaving my current job for a new one. I’m seeing the potential for really great things to happen. I’m reminded by a post written by a blogging friend of mine. She was running a race with her husband and she had started to slow down and he asked “Are you ok?” She replied “Yes, but I’m going to run out of steam before the finish, I can’t keep this pace up.” And he replied… “But what if you can?”
And she did. She went on to finish having run the whole thing at a pace faster than she thought possible.
What if I really can have an improved work environment? What if I really can get a number of things I have on my mental checklist of “I wish I could’s”? What if leaving won’t find me miserable at a new job… but instead insanely happy? What if, by leaving, I open myself up to the opportunities I didn’t realize I had?
So, to those people who have lifted me up and said such wonderful things… Again, thank you so much. You’ve given me the boost I needed to change my emotional climate from fear to hope and excitement. Thank you so much.